Get me out of my mind

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Fri, 06 Jul 2007 19:38:32 GMT

Tonight shall be interesting.

Me + Mini Golf = disaster lol. Rebecca and I are going out tonight. One of our girls nights. It shall be fun, entertaining, and interesting. haha. But I'm excited. It'll be nice to get away for even just a few hours.
The weather finally isn't that bad, so that's a plus.

hope everyone else is having a good Friday!

xo

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Tue, 03 Jul 2007 07:22:32 GMT

I feel like such a baby for being all sad about leaving my mom here by herself when I leave next week.
It's kind of heart breaking though. I haven't left her since my dad passed away. She hasn't been alone since then. It's hard for me when I'm the only child. Her and I are best friends basically. It took AWHILE for that to happen. And with the neighbourhood we live in...it's not reassuring knowing she'll be alone with the dogs.
Good news...Zach and I should have her moved down with us by the holidays.
So it's like a birthday present to my mom :)

*sigh* anyway. I got a Clandestine shirt on eBay if anyone wants to check it out..
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ih=010&sspagename=STRK%3AMESE%3AIT&viewitem=&item=200125483395&rd=1&rd=1

if you people got any questions just send me an email: zachmanda21403@gmail.com
or IM me using AIM: zachsfallenstar

I'll answer questions about the item, and what not.

Hope everyone out there is doing good.
And if anyone knows a good place online to sell Records(Vinyls) let me know..

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Mon, 25 Jun 2007 21:53:00 GMT

I'm all sorts of awesome.

I won a pair of tickets to Warped Tour my show is 8/10

They are an early birthday present to Zach. I'm excited oh yes indeed. Anyone else going to the show?

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Fri, 22 Jun 2007 19:26:42 GMT

You were my dad, my friend, and someone I look up to still.

Two years ago is when you left us. I know you're no longer in pain, but I miss you so much.
I wish if anything I could hear you laugh once more.
I do hope though, that somehow I've made you proud over the past two years.

I love you daddy R.I.P. 06/22/05

Forever and always your little girl <3

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 03:34:21 GMT

I love my friends dearly.
Even the ones whom I hardly talk with now for some reason. Which is really my fault more times than not.
I get in modes where I push myself from everything/everyone. I don't mean to. But I don't do well with talking my problems out at all. Listening to music is what I do, or writing.

Sid. We've been through a lot, I must say. But look I stuck around. I would drop everything in a instant just to help you find happiness. Seeing you down more than up hurts. I don't know how to make the pain go away.
And I'm not so good with words, forgive me. But I do care, and love you a lot.

Lex, I want to take your pain away. I hate seeing you down and broken. I know we hardly talk now, and that's kind of my fault. But know that always no matter where I am or what I'm doing I DO think of you always and I care A LOT about you. I love you.

Kelsy..you live once. Never regret anything or take anything for granted. Live life to the fullest, but make it worth it. Try your hardest at everything you do. YOU can do ANYTHING you put your mind to. Let love find you, don't worry about it if it doesn't come to you right away. Worry about school right now, that's all that matters.
You're an amazing girl, and just as amazing friend. Anytime you need/want to talk you know I'm here.

Jill I miss our show. I would love to see you again before I leave. You've become a close friend. And to think it all started on fobrock. I can't wait for the fall, or next year. It will be a blast. Don't worry I'll be back to Buffalo to visit. <3

Zach. Oh lord. Where to start. I guess these are the only things to be said..
Thank you for talking me out of so many things. Not sure what I'd do without that. How you manage to put up with me I'll never know. But I love you more than words can possibly express. You mean the world to me and so much more. Thank you <3

*sigh* why I did this I will never know. Hope you all read this.
If I said something stupid I'm sorry. I tried though.

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Thu, 24 May 2007 17:26:00 GMT

You should tell my twin conorchu Happy Birthday :)

I'm more than pumped for Memorial day. It shall be a nice day weather wise, and absolutely amazing.
I get to meet Jill, and rock out hxc. Amazing. <3

Sunday Zach arrives. effin awesome shit right there.

I think that's as much of an update as I can give. Mostly I'm just really excited and taking everything in.

To a special someone:
angelxonxfire I miss you so much. I want to take away your problems. I don't like seeing you down bb.
If you need anything you know I'm always here. Hopefully me calling Monday during your song will make you forget for a little bit. ILY dearly <3

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Sat, 05 May 2007 03:43:20 GMT

FUCKIN' AWESOME SHIT TONIGHT! Yes Indeed!

anyone who lost faith in this team, needs a swift kick in the rear end.
They don't give up, they bounce back ALWAYS. If they don't loose faith, us as fans shouldn't either.

I'll be watching game 6..will you?

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Thu, 03 May 2007 21:44:49 GMT

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Southern. Love it or hate it, your accent says you're probably from somewhere south of the Ohio River.

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zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Wed, 02 May 2007 03:24:54 GMT

Being straight forward and honest... and maybe offensive..but at this point I do not care....

Fuck the rangers...seriously.
That was a damn goal, whether anyone cares to believe me or not.
Stupid ass faces. Damn rangers. :|

/rant

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Tue, 24 Apr 2007 07:39:52 GMT

So the weather has been absolutely amazing. We even had a thunderstorm today. It was superb literally.
The trees are even starting to get their leaves now, finally.

Friday was spent hanging out with one of my best friends. My sister, Rebecca. It was so awesome.
We went to the mall, why? I have no idea, we didn't even do anything there. Lol.
Then afterwards we needed to both head to Target, so we did. Browsed around, looking for crap we either didn't need or dreamed of owning.
Next off we went to TGI Fridays, and just did our thing. We watched the Sabres game there too.
Was awesome to see our guys win at home, and take the damn series in game 5.
Their next victims are the New York Rangers. Oh my :|

After Friday's we went to a bar..I was a little weird about it at first. But I loosened up to some Jack and Coke.
I had four Jack and Cokes, and man I was there...LOL. I mean, I was cracking the weirdest jokes, and just having a blast. But I was not completely falling over myself drunk. I'm normally very laid back, and humorous, more than usual. haha. I rarely drink as it is. The last time I had alcohol was on my birthday...fuckin' 7 months ago, so don't start going..OMG you're an alcoholic...BITE ME!

Let's see, oh we drove to Tops, I need to get money out of my bank account. This fuckin' weird as dude..comes up to the car and goes... "Hey what you two ladies up to tonight? I wanna kick it wit ya'll"
We were more a less like..yea, we got boyfriends that we'll be meeting up with in about 15mins, and we're from out of state, so we really need to get going.

Midnight strangers coming up out of nowhere is pretty creeping in Buffalo, yet at the same time very common. Even in daylight :| go figure.

Saturday, I went out shopping with my mom. Then came home and enjoyed the warmth.
Later on I dyed my hair, a very nice Dark chocolate brown. It's very pretty. I then whored myself with my camera flaunting my new hair color. Then I rocked out to some music.

Then Sunday, I just relaxed and slept in until 3:30pm :|....Oh yes it was amazing.... haha.

So yea, that wraps up my weekend, hope everyone else had a good one..or an okay one.

Xo

AnonMeme stolen from my twin..

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Thu, 19 Apr 2007 07:24:45 GMT

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Post more than once if you'd like, in fact, I recommend it, just make sure you post it anonymously, don't tell me who you are & comment with honesty. When I say honesty, I do mean honesty, but if you wish to change names around if it's about a certain somebody and you wish for the name not to be revealed - you may do so.

You do not have to be on my friends list to answer this, nor do you even have to like or know me.

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zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Sun, 15 Apr 2007 04:22:05 GMT

- Not a good game. Hopefully game 3 will be better. -sigh-

- The snow has already started falling, we got some nasty ass snow storm hitting us this weekend.
Come on dudes, it's April. Not January. :| ugh.

- have hardly even talked to Zach in the passed 96hrs.

- got sick at 6am. Oh joy of joys.

+ kept my allergies under control for most of the day.

+ finally got some well needed rest.

so yea that wraps up my day. wtf. Ugh!
Maybe tomorrow will be better. I think I'm going to drown myself in movies for the rest of the night. bleh.

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Sat, 14 Apr 2007 08:49:40 GMT

It's almost 5am, and instead of heading off to bed I'd rather watch a movie.
There's always time for the Goonies.

Weather forecast: snow showers until Monday evening. ya know what? fuck snow. who needs snow?
I'm thinking warm weather is just a dream at this point. wtf. bleh.

In other news Game 2: Sabres Vs. Isles is tonight. I'm pumped.

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Wed, 11 Apr 2007 21:16:32 GMT

I'll be buying property in Scotland (seriously).
All I want to do is get away from everything. Plus why not go somewhere beautiful.
Life is so fucked up on so many levels.
But I try to let the good times get me through, even though the bad times out weigh the good.
I miss the old days when I never had to think or worry about anything.
Being a kid was so rad. I miss having sleepovers with my best friend.
Staying up late telling stories. We even acted out Titanic the weekend the movie released.
It was priceless. I miss those days something fierce.

Anyone going to visit me in Scotland?
Anyone want to have a sleepover?

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Tue, 10 Apr 2007 20:19:53 GMT

Someone send me some cheesecake.

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Sat, 07 Apr 2007 20:04:17 GMT

In a very good mood today. Sabres winning added to my good mood, and also seeing Tim Connolly in the game for the first time since the playoffs last year just made my mood even better.
Last game before playoffs is tomorrow, game will be on NBC.
So those of you on the east coast tune in and watch them.

Only thing getting me irritated today is the fact it's snowing on and off. wtf. ugh.

Otherwise, it's a good day. Get to hang out with my mom for this weekend.
Hopefully everyone has a good weekend. <33

btw to one of my friends
bandchick76 (Natalie): my thoughts and prayers are with you, and your puppy.
I hope everything turns out ok dear. -hugs- ily <333 Love~me

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Fri, 06 Apr 2007 05:46:34 GMT

a few pluses to end the night...

+ Maxim Afinogenov returned to the lineup tonight for the Sabres.
+ Drank fuze
+ Had a good night with my mother
+ Tim Connolly to return to lineup Saturday and/or Sunday

++++ Sabres played an awesome game
++++ Sabres also defeated the bruins (not like it was going to be hard to do)

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Thu, 05 Apr 2007 22:29:07 GMT

Uhm wow, it's been snowing for 24hrs. wtf.

Dear snow: I hate choo. Go away. Love ~ moi <3

Although, my allergies aren't as bad as they were. So a partial yay, but still angry at the snow nonetheless.

Anyways, +/- of the day so far....

- Missing Sid(my twin) something fierce, haven't talked to him since the day I left to visit Zach =(
- Zach being in Florida for a few weeks where it's warm while I freeze.
+ Sabres Game
+ No allergy related Headaches
- Damn dog waking me up at 4am
- Being awake since 4am
- People messing with my itunes settings, and unchecking all 3,000 some odd songs. wtf dudes.
- Procrastinating on packing...STILL
+ Getting a pretty nice amount back on my tax return
+ Not having to pay NY state tax this year
+ Getting closer to May
- Don't want to wait to hang out with Jill at HCT
+ Santi on repeat
- missing lex writing :( *goes and re-reads past chapters*

Hmm not a lot of pluses, oh well. Maybe I can add some later tonight. who knows.

xo

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Wed, 04 Apr 2007 04:51:25 GMT

So besides feeling like my face is going to explode, I had an alright night.

Watched the Sabres game and wowzer. I'm so proud of them this season. They've had some problems, but they still have managed to play like a team, and not get to cocky about where they are in the standings.
I like what I see, and I applaud them.

They clinched the northeast division by winning tonights game :D
And congratulations to Thomas Vanek for scoring his 40th goal this season.

Next they're off to play the bruins on Thursday, they play the Capitals on Saturday, and then Sunday to play the Flyers.

P.S. weather in buffalo is weird. 60 degree weather has been awesome, now we drop down to the thirties for the rest of the week. wtf :| I knew I should have stayed in hibernation longer.

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Tue, 03 Apr 2007 18:55:34 GMT

Springtime is nice, except for the fact that my allergies are out of control right now.
Damn tree pollen. Oh but I'm so over joyed because it gets worse when flowers and grass start up. wtf. bleh.

Anyways, not too much has been going on.
Although I have been procrastinating on packing up basically anything.
Because I have this doubt in the back of my head that keeps telling me that I will not be moving.
Then again I tend to worry more than anything else. I seem to always do that.

Getting more excited, we're now in April which means I'm closer to being at HCT soon.
I'm so damn excited :D
And I get to meet up with my buddy Jill. Which is sweet as hell, because she's a pretty amazing person. Yep.

Anyways, I'm heading out now, but take notes and go listen to A Day Away.
They're a pretty cool band, and they just may have the opportunity to play Warped Tour in Battle of The Bands on the Ernie Ball Stage. I'm definitely excited for them.

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 20:23:21 GMT

So being back in Louisville was amazing.

The memorial service for dad was actually very very good. I remember when I was younger and I'd go to a traditional Catholic memorial, they were damn boring as hell. But this one was really good.

Was so awesome seeing my sister in law again I love her so much. I hadn't seen her for about a year.
Not cool.

Wouldn't you know my mother in law started shit on Saturday with me and Zach. Then later that day him and I have a bit of an argument which turns crazy. Ugh. And trust me when I say the dispute was ridiculous and in a grocery store. Oh do we fuckin' pwn or what.

I wanted to rip out my ovaries by Thursday evening. wtf guys seriously.

Good news is...in May when Zach comes up to be my date for HCT I'll be moving down to Louisville.
I'm just damn excited right now. Only thing that sucks...is packing. I hate packing with a burning passion.

So I've missed a lot of you, especially my twin who was concerned I'd run into a lot of hobos on the bus lol.
Which I didn't. Except some really creepy 500lbs guy tried hitting on me when I was in Cincinnati on my way to Louisville. Creepy.

Btw I have some pictures of Zach and I that I took day before I left. I'll post some soon :)

Love you betches. XO

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zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 14:12:55 GMT

Alright so most of my worrying has been lifted off my shoulders. I'd like to say all of it, but that would be a lie.
So I have good news and bad news....

Bad News: Zach's dad is the same as far as illness goes, but as far as things looking up, we were sadly mistaken.
In other words death is right upon his doorstep you can see it. I found this out from Zach himself last night.
This is such a struggle, it's harder than hell to deal with. I would never wish anyone have cancer, even my worst enemy. No one deserves to suffer like this. -sigh- So if you can just keep Zach's dad in your thoughts and/or prayers.
I know you all don't know him, but it would mean a lot to us.

Good news: Finally after 6 months of not seeing him and 1 year for not seeing his family, I get see Zach. w00t!
I'm more than excited, I'm ecstatic. I'll be down there for probably a week or two. Not completely sure on that one just yet.
While I'm down there on April 11th I shall get to see Gym Class Heroes for the first time. I'm flippin' excited.

Question: How are Gym Class Heroes shows? Like are they pumped and amazing, or "I want to stab my eye" to entertain my self?

And

How is This Providence?
Yes they'll also be there, I just really want to know what to expect. So if anyone can gimme some info that'd be cool.

So I think that's enough of an update for now. Stalk ya later.

Meme

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 03:45:52 GMT

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favourite place?
5. Favourite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you ?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
11. What is your favourite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What 's your favourite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 22:31:24 GMT

I feel like smacking someone or breaking something.
I'm tired of my friends getting shit from other people for No damn reason. wth.
If you're going to be pissed off at someone please have a valid reason, and don't just do it because everyone else and their momma is doing it. If I have to hear or see my friends getting hell from anyone I'll become your worst nightmare.
I promise you that.
/rant

P.S. Yelling at someone on the net makes you look like an uber douche.

zachmanda21403@gmail.com — Thu, 08 Mar 2007 21:14:52 GMT

Things I am more than excited for...

- Getting to see my best friend, twin, just my everything very soon.
- Going to see Zach for the first time since my birthday, and getting to be with him for weeks.
- The cold weather to finally disappear.
- Getting my hair done. I'm sick of the look right now
- New puppy
- The pain to leave.
- Getting back to my old self.
- Fridge full of Fuze, and POM wonderful blueberry
- Summer nights spooning with my loves
- Water fights to keep us cool on those hot unbearable nights.
- Laying out in a field staring at the stars.
- Honda Civic Tour(even though it looks like I might need to sell my tickets..not sure yet. depends on how things go.)
- Having a girls night out with one of my good friends.
- Sleepovers once again
- Whispers in my ear about how much you care.

I'm a little dreamer, but I don't ask for much at all.
So that was a cheesy update, sorry to bore you if you read that. Ya know I still love you betches! =]

Xo

Get me out of my mind

AnonMeme stolen from my twin..

+/- wtf...

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Meme

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